…but the past has its moments.
I suppose I am completely back at this point.
Previously, I was present bodily, but my mind was still elsewhere.
However, now I have managed to wrangle it in, as it is much too small to be out on its own.
The road trip is over, but in some ways, its effect will live on.
If nothing else, it confirmed an obviously needed change in direction, as in many ways not only did I travel in space but in time as well.
Before dismissing this as preposterous, hear me out.
Obviously I lengthened the spacial distance between myself and in anyone in Knoxville…
…but by reconnecting with friends my the near recent past, it was very much like time travel.
Starting in Lynchburg, I met a lot of friends from my first year of school in Florida, circa 2003-2004.
Then I met up with friends from my second year away at school in New York.
The apex of it all was when I returned to the campus in New York, only to find it had not substantially changed at all since I left.
Even the weather was eeriely similar to the fall when I first started school there in 2005.
Had I been wearing clothes from that same time period, I may as well have been in 2005, as everything was identical.
An interesting movie on this idea is “Somewhere in Time” and while the plot is somewhat flawed, it is still an interesting concept.
Not seeing anyone as well as no one being aware of my presense as I walked the campus there in New York, in many ways I ceased to exist in time.
Or rather, my existence in a chronogical location ceased to be provable.
That is, until I recieved a phone call…
And all at once, I returned to the present…the moment lost, but not forgotten.
In many ways, that night in New York, I was as far away as one could be from anything and anyone known in the present.
Looking back only confirmed my new shift in direction as being long overdue and increased my anticipation for it to fully take effect.
Rather than staying vague on this, I might as well elaborate now…
Several weeks ago, once school subsided enough for me to look around and assess my life, I realized I didn’t like very much, if any of it.
Almost everything was not only less than ideal, but less than desirable.
Rather than remain discontent, and not do anything about it other than bemoan the issue, I decided to change things.
So, I quit my internship which wasn’t really working for either the church or myself.
I jumped on the offer to accept a promotion to shift supervisor at work, which proved to be largely more fulfilling and is a much better fit.
I broke up with Carrie, which you can read about it an earlier blog, but which happened for much the same reason as the termination of the internship.
I applied to go to Dallas Theological Seminary in August, and got accepted 4 days later.
I finished up the bulk of my degree and put an end to a chapter in my life that was necessary, but not necessarily enjoyable.
And then I left for Virginia et al. and had the most enjoyable, fulfilling 11 days of 2007 so far.
The finished product?
In 3 months…
I will live in another state…
go to another school…
work in a different position at a different Starbucks, and…
interact with a new and entirely different set of people.
Will I miss those I’ve gotten to know around here?
But I could not be more ready, or more excited to leave…
…and start becoming who I’ve always been meant to be