At this point, there are no less than a few potential blogs brewing, however, to further the coffee analogy (since that’s all there is right?) they are all in different stages, and not more than a couple have made it to funnel lock, which if you have operated the Bunn brewers at Starbucks, you realize the implications of funnel lock.
Soon enough, there will be more than a venti cup of thought to drink down and hopefully excite the nervous system not quite unlike caffeine.
For now, a general review might help, I mean after all, the art of interpretation involves knowing the context of the writer (me) so it might help to know what’s been going on recently.
The short version is that I now live in Dallas, rather permanently, and am still unfortunately working at Starbucks, but by the grace of God (in every sense of the phrase) am now attending Dallas Theological Seminary working towards my Masters of Theology (Th.M) and eventually, probably some level of doctoral work. But with 120 hours of credits to work on at the moment, that should keep me busy for no less than 4 years.
The long version is probably of less interest to most, and quite possibly may not be able to be fully put into words, but other than the external obvious changes, several qualitative internal changes are on the horizon, which here in Dallas at least, can be obscured by the smog. I am aware at least of a maturation taking place, but as to what shape it will take…well, it is as a poor reflection in a mirror, but soon I will see what I’ve become face to face.
This is probably the most proactive I have been in, well, ever. Knowing where I am prone to wander, and knowing that I have been prone to absent-minded lethargy during the autumn months, I am hoping to have some sense of a headstart this time around, by staying on top of assignments and reading specifically, as well as figuring out how best to structure my time and setting up meetings with various faculty to get advice on direction and the like. Needless to say, it is not the formula to a flawless semester, but it is leaps and bounds ahead of mindlessly floating through the semester from one assignment to the next, not really learning anything or exploring any subject in further detail.
However, for me this is different. This is coming out of my pocket, both now, and when the loans stop being deferred, and honestly, this is what I nearly killed myself getting through that Liberty online nonsense to be able to study. In that sense, the process is the goal. To be here studying theology and bible and philosophy is what I’ve wanted to do for a few years now. In light of that, there is really no time constraints, there is no “hurrying up to graduate to get on with my life.” This is my life now, not that its the end to which I think I have been created, but in a very real sense, I was made to be here. Here as in Dallas Theological Seminary, studying the Bible, being trained and molded for ministry, but at the same time, being active in ministry all along the way. There is no longer a “down the road.” There is only the here and now, that is redeemable either for good or for evil. I am living in the moment so to speak, but with eyes towards to the future to stay on track and to make sure that I am not running in vain, not that I have already attained, but I strive to lay hold of that for which Jesus has laid a hold of me.
Bottom line: This is what makes me come alive.
Now, if I could just stop consuming Phish Food and Chipotle burritos in mass quantities, I might actually stay alive, or at least in good health while I am alive.
So there you have it, the slightly abbreviated version of what’s new. I’m sure more details will be filled in along the way, but for now, this will have to do.